My own way.. My own style

Ppl who dunno me well sure will have a wrong perception that there’s only bad things happen in my life..well, it’s just becos I have this bad habit of feeling to write whenever I have something unhappy happened on me.
Recently I’ve gone through some hardships in my working.  A lot of pressure and shit happens on me which made me down & upset..hoping that this is just a temporary process of adjusting myself to survive. I don’t think there’s any ways that Im gonna adapt myself to the culture which they have been practicing for years or even decades. Guess I should take a break b4 I cont to move on…and hopefully I would less torture myself by lower down the expectation towards own self.
Personal life wise, Im still busy looking for a nice place to shift..
To me, a house is not only a place to rest or stay.. It is a place where I can be my true self..  where I can release my tension..scream as loud as I can..do all the stupid & crazy things which I used to do when Im under stress.. to reduce my pains & angers..
So that I won’t be NUTS~! =P Blerkzz…………………………….

Last night I went for a movie at Mid Valley as there are free tickets available. The movie was kinda touching but yet very much of ‘WAR’ kind of thing which is not my interest at all..and the theater is as cold as cold meat storage space~ ishhh…

The time I came back home is already almost midnight. I started to read about the official website of the company I’m gonna have interview appointment the next early morning - 9.00am. By the time I finished reading all the necessary information.. guess what time is it now? 2am++ jor!! It left less than 5 hours sleeping time for me!! The worst thing is actually I’m feeling quite nervous and worried because I get the notice about this interview appointment through email by late evening and I didn’t have much time to get myself to be well prepared..plus I went for the movie as well. Have been suffered from insomnia for quite a while..

The next morning, I woke up and bathed myself like a zombie..rushing to the destination which is located in an area that I never been to before…until forgot about my own breakfast. Really a ‘big headed prawn’ of myself~ =P
Walking to the receptionist on 8.30am for 9.00am appointment is really worth of being proud with..Blerk~ XP

But the surprise was….the receptionist gave me something that I didn’t expect that I’ll be getting it at all. An IT literacy assessment!! The passing mark is 70% and above?!?!?! GOSH!! Someone please help me get out of this!! Looking at the questions like I was looking at some kind of alien language.. trying to think very hard which to tembak as the answer for each questions on the paper. Damn!! Luckily it’s MCQ, if not I would have to die la…

But what I have suffered for the day is really worth for what I got back as return. I get the job offer from this company as well!! Hehe.. I am real happy..dunno how to express my happiness through words jor..
Haha.. Sorry for those who are reading this post..I’m being a bit siaw recently after quite a number of interviews..

Compared to today, yesterday was really a pretty day for me. I got my very 1st permanent job offer from a well established company after the interview session in Menara TM~! This is really one of the best things that is worth for a celebration for me recently. This time I don’t have to scratch my head looking for parking space like mad compared to my previous experience. Hehe.. must be Guan Yin blessing me real good..I did pray hard before goin out from my house =P

Okay here is the story for today:
Today is a real mess!! Guess it’s my fault of forgetting to pray.. have to rush out cos I scare might be get late to meet one of the senior at my future work place in KL city. Moreover, I have to drive to KL sentral and take monorail to the ‘Golden Triangular’ - Jalan Sultan Ismail.

The traffic is smooth enough for me to reach KL sentral by just 15 minutes from my house..and then the 1st bad thing for today started to come to me. When I was about to press the button for the parking ticket from the machine, I realised that the parking rate is freaking expensive!! Can you imagine 4 bucks for the 1st hour and 2.20 for the subsequent hours? Okay, let’s take a look again.. Celaka!! It’s still the same leh!! Count by hours and charge so high!! If it’s not that I don’t wanna be late, I think I will just go out and take another way or even drive to Star Hill. Somemore I have to walked all the way to the monorail station. I hate walking esp under the sun..even though today is cloudy..hehe =P

After I settled all the things, when I wanted to pay for the parking at the auto pay machine..another disaster came to me! The machine cannot process my ticket and the screen keeping showing:" Please turn over your ticket".. Okay fine, I’ll do whatever it asked. Do you think my day is just gonna be this easy? The answer is definitely NO!! I asked the for help from the KLIA transit’s teller to guide me who should I approach to get help with this problem. The lady just asked me to go to the office on Level 4. Then I ‘lek lek’ thought it’s the information counter for KL sentral that she meant. But the weird thing is when I walked down to the centre part of the hall, I saw a huge information counter. The lady of the counter actually told me that I have to go up and pay at Level 4 if it happened cannot be paid through the machine. I said: "What do you mean by cannot be paid?" I was thinking that, what the hell is this? This is the system that you are having for KL sentral? Charging such a premier price but this lousy services you are providing to us? You gotta be kidding me!!

Considering of my ticket gonna be charged for another 2.20 again if I don’t leave on time..I lazy to complain but giving her a nasty face before leaving. I went to Level 3 and took my car, ‘lek lek’ thought that there will be a counter at the exit for me to pay. The moment I saw the exit, I said to myself :"Bloody hell~" There ain’t any counters at the exit!! I have to park my car aside..walk all the way go up to Level 4 and pay for the ticket at something like an office. In the end, the malay lady gave me another ticket for me to exit the building.
So this is the real good system established by KL sentral. Really Genius ar!!

It has been almost 2 weeks time since I’ve been working as a part timer in a market research firm. I can’t believe it’s just took 1 week++ to make me fall sick… sounds ridiculous rite?  oh man trust me for this time pls… i didn’t tell lies…
well i guess i haven’t adapt to the working life and the work load is quite heavy for my body even though i think mentally i still can stand for some more time… now only i know i’m WEAK!! but the worse thing is i couldn’t find anytime to do revision for my studies!! my friends must be saying that I’m siaw d~ the exam is on end of this year…
frankly speaking I’m starting to get worried of it… after my frustration and doubts… being like child telling everyone that i wanna give up and do something else but not this course anymore… one of my lecturer said :" kimberly r u crazy? u’ve came so far to this level d… and now u said u wanna give up? u must be joking!!" i still rmb his face even though it was a week ago… yelling at me like i’m telling some kind of stupid jokes…
yea yea yea… i’m crazy!!! just as a result of this course nia…
i realised i’ve changed a lot becos of this course that i’m STILL doing now… i was determined of doing it… but that was a long time ago… i nvr find that it’s so damn hard to study and sit for exams… i nvr find that it’s hard to understand the theories and how to apply it on real context… i nvr find it’s that hard to attempt all questions on time… i nvr find that it’s that hard to tell the examiners how far i know about marketing!!!
if i do have a choice to choose what to do for the rest of my life…
seriously i rather choose something that i’m fit into but not what i’m
most interested in.. well as long as i dun hate it…it sounds okay for
me..doing something that is not talented in will really drive me
crazy.. maybe the world is too result oriented but that’s what i
think…
from time to time i’m thinking of just run away from all these and my life will be better then ever… but when i tot of this is the path that i’ve choosen for myself i’ll fall into dilemmas…for SURE!!
yea.. this is me… typical cheah sin yee’s style~~ really cant stand of myself being like this anymore…